Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Gavie's 2 year pics ..

I took a mini photo shoot of Gavie today. I think these turned out great!

So sad ...

Toto had another seizure tonight. I am calling the Vet first thing in the morning to get him in. My heart is breaking right now. He is like one of my boys.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

What a scare!

Last night I had just got done changing Mister Gavie and went to take his diaper downstairs to the trash. Well Gavie has learned to open doors of course so the boys room has baby gates on both sides (the entry to the room and the bathroom entry from the room) to keep Gavie in so he doesn't play on the stairs. (His new favorite thing!) Well Toto was trying to go with me and I guess he tried jumping the gate while I was going down the stairs.

When I returned like 2 mins later Toto was balled up over by the gate to the entry of the room. I nudged him telling him to move so I could get over the gate even muttering to myself because he wasn't moving. After nearly tripping over him I look down and notice both of his front legs sticking straight out .. him shaking and the look of panic in his eyes!

I tried standing him up and he just fell over. He then began to violently shake like he was having a severe seizure! Poor Nicholas was bawling he was so upset and scared. I wrapped him in a towel and held him close for like 10 minutes to see if that helped and tried standing him up again. (If he fell again we were rushing him to the Vet! But instead he was fine his usual playful jumpy self!!!

We think what happened was he tried to jump the gate and somehow got hurt and it freeked him out and he went into some type of shock. I have monitored him and checked his legs and he seems fine today still playing and jumping around. o

It is true what they say about your pets. They are like your children!! Holding him last night shaking and scared was like holding one of my boys. Toto is truly a part of this family and hopefully a looooooooooooooooooong time member!

Sketti Bo Betti ...

Well last night we had spaghetti and let's just say Gavie enjoyed his way to much!!! He even had it in his eyebrows! His Pop asked him if his brows were hungry to which he smiled real big and said yes!! I was able to snap some pics of this lovely mess called Gavin Jon before I threw him in the tub.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

So excited to announce!

Just Mommies had a top 100 Mommy Blogs and I am excited to announce that my crazy SillyVille blog is among those 100!! Thank you to all who voted for my blog it is nice to know that I have some regular readers out there!

Back to Normal ...

Last week was so chaotic with all that was going on. I am happy that things are starting to get back to normal around here. Well as normal as they can be in our unique family. I did however make it through the week without pulling my hair out. It may have helped though because I am in need of a haircut badly! Who has time!! Now I have to plan for my baby turning the big 2 waaaaaaaaah!!! I also have to prepare myself for the big 30 sigh.

I am still trying to convince my Dad that he needs to get the treatment but, he is a stubborn old man!!! So we shall see. I would die if I lost him and I don't think he realizes that.Sigh.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Thought for the Day ...

Just a random thought about Chemotherapy.

Isn't it weird how something so toxic Nurses and Doctors wear protective gear when messing with it we let them put into our Children's bodies and Pray to God that it kills a demon much worse then it's own toxic self.

My poor child ..

This is what happens when your Mommy is obsessed with taking pics of you and your big brother!

We will always be friends.

I just love this pic so much! Gavie and his BFF! He loves that Bear more then anything. He has a replacement Bear but that one is put in the closet because he will not let go of this one.

911 Can I help you?

Today Gavin decided we were to boring to play with. So he took it upon himself to sneak the phone (his fave past time)and call 911! Dear Lord I was so embarrassed when the Greenwood Police Department called me back asking me if we were ok!

I explained to the officer that my Toddler had been playing with the phone and must of dialed the number. He laughed and said it happens all the time ... Glad to know everyone's ok. Wew thank goodness I didn't get a lecture from them on not letting kids play with the phone!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Words cannot describe how I feel.

I found out yesterday that my Father has Colon Cancer. This Cancer has been one of the number one killers in his family so right now I am devastated to say the least. At the same time I am also so mad and pissed at my Dad right now! He has apparently known for a month that he was sick and never even told me!

I try to keep track of all of his Doctor appointments and I ALWAYS ask him what happened and what they say. His famous saying is "They said I am going to live until I die" UGH this disturbs me so much! And the fact that he has known for a month and has yet to start treatment makes me so mad!

He has so much to live for yet it seems like he wants to give up. I will not allow this and I will push him forward and do what I have to do to make him want to fight and live. I still need him and my boys need him so he can not give up!!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Will you still remember me?

The night before last Nicholas told me he missed his Grampa. I said well I can call Poppy and you can talk to him and we will see him Wed. night for dinner. He said No Mommy my Grampa in Heaven. (My Mom's Dad) Holding back the tears I said we all do hunny.

I then told him when he gets older one day he will go to Heaven and he will see him again. Nic then says but Mommy he wont remember me. I told him not to worry his Grampa would know who he was and why would he think that? I couldn't help but smile when in true Nicholas fashion he says to me I will be all grown up and look different how will he know who I am?!

I assured him that his Grampa will always remember who he was no matter how different he looked that Grampa's never forget.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Child Support ..

Why is it so hard to pay for your child and help take care of him/her? My ex husband (Nic's father) seems to think this is so hard to do. And it is really driving me crazy! Tomorrow he goes to court yet again over this issue.

He is over 15 Grand behind as of right now. And he always manages to stay out of jail. If he does go his rich Daddy bails him out ASAP! What does that teach him huh? He is supposed to be facing Prison time this time around due to it being a Felony case now. But I am sure he will get out of it as he always does. What makes me even more POed is that he is engaged now! I could care less that he is it is just the fact that he has all this money to go on trips with her yet cannot pay on Nicholas.

She even had the NERVE to msg me on MySpace and tell me what a wonderful man he was and how he wanted Nic in his life what the hell?! She obviously doe not know the same man I know. She also happens to work for Clarion Health which is a part of Riley Hospital. (where Gavie goes) And Ronnie just happened to get my address after years of not knowing it. It sucks that I have no visual proof. I know she was behind it though. Ronnie tried to say he hired a PI to find us. That is total BS! I know him and he could care less much less spend all that money to find a child he wouldn't spend the money to support if he didn't have to.

I know I am rambling but this just ticks me off UGH!!!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Grown Women

Grown Women

want to control the man in their life.

Grown Women
know that if he 's tru ly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

yell at you for not calling them.

Grown Women
are too busy to realize you hadn't.

ar e afraid to be alone.

Grown Women
revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

ignore the good guys.

Grown Women
ignore the bad guys.

make you come home.

Grown Women
make you want to come home.

leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Grown Women
make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.

worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.

Grown Women
know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).

Grown Women
realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes out with her own friends

think a guy crying is weak.

Grown Women
offer their shoulder and a tissue.

want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.

Grown Women
'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.

Grown Women
know that was just one man.

fall in love and chase aiml essly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs'.

Grown Women
know that sometimes the ones you love don't always love you back and move on without bitterness.

will read this and get an attitude.

Grown Women
will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

Mine Mine it is all Mine!

Well it has happened! Gavie has discovered the world of Mine! Everything now is MINE MINE MINE. Don't touch mine! I hope this phase doesn't last to long! I don't remember Nic going through this! He has always wanted to share everything. These boys are total opposites!

I don't know how they do it!

Today I watched my friend Tiffani's 2 children. Ameila is 4 and Gabe is 1. Oh my goodness I do not know how the Mommies with children close together do it! I am wore out!!! Gavie and Ameila were at each other all night about MINE MINE MINE! Nicholas was just well Nic! He is a ball of energy and I do enough keeping up with him and Gav. Gabe was the only good one! He was quiet the whole time and just observed everyone. If I knew any better he probably thought they were all crazy!

I am so ready for bed! And tomorrow is another big day. I have a meeting with the First Steps Coordinator and then Gavie has therapy. After that I am going to work out a lil bit and do the Mommy thing of course! Then Friday I plan on tutoring at Nic's school.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Nic's back to school.

Today is the day! Nic headed back to school this morning after a long and fun filled Christmas break! He was so excited to go and tell all of his buddies that Santa got him a new DS and MP3 player!

Gavie is wondering around here like hmmmm why is it so quiet!!!

Friday, January 4, 2008

This is why we don't co-sleep!

OK last night Nic wanted to lay down with Gavie and I and watch a movie. Well Nic fell asleep so I just covered him up and left him in bed. At 6 this morning he is literally kicking me out of the bed!!! OMG that kid is all over the bed! Poor Gavie was awoken in the middle of the night due to him being all over the bed as well. Luckily I got him back asleep before he was wide awake! So from now on Nic stays in his own bed!!

Guess what ...

Gavie's 2 year check-up

WOW I cannot believe my baby boy is turning 2! It is bittersweet in a way. I am so excited to see him thrive and doing so well. But at the same time I am sad because I miss my little baby Gavie. Each day though he amazes me. He is always coming up with something cute to make us all laugh. And to see Nic and Gavie together is so neat. They are already doing the brotherly things like wrestling and playing Spiderman or Hotwheels together. Nic truly adores Gavie and is so overprotective of him!

Well today Gavie had his 2 year check-up and he did really well. He is still a little guy and is only in the 50th percentile in everything. A far cry from Nic who was always in the 90th! To me he seems so little! I am used to Nic who was my chunky munky! He has to get some labs done this up coming week. Just to check his CBC levels and to do a full food allergy check on him.

Here are his STATS ...

Head: 19 1/2
Weight: 27 lbs
Height: 34 1/2

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Hey Mom wanna Skateboard?!

My boys have decided that they are the next Tony Hawks. I am already pulling my hair out!!! Nothing like seeing your 23 months old obsessed with skateboarding!

A New Year a New Me!

I know I said at the beginning of last year I was going to do alot of things. But I wasn't quite ready at the time to forgive and forget things. Even though I wanted to really bad!!! But this year I am ready to move on and forgive and forget. What is done is done. You cannot make someone be with you when they do not want to this I know.

I am actually happy alone. I have my boys to keep me company. They take up 90 percent of my time anyways. Sure I get lonely every now and then. Who doesn't? But I have other things to occupy my time. I am going on 3 years now of being alone so I should be used to keeping myself busy.

Maybe one day I will find this so called Mister Right. I wonder if there is a such thing. Only time will tell. I do know however that this year I will be HAPPY and focus on me!!! Here are a few of my resolutions!

1. Lose weight! I am determined to lose all my goal weigh by this summer!!! I better get started now!

2. Focus on me!!! I am always making other people happy. This year it is about me me me!

3. Start being girly again! I have focused so much on Gavie being sick that I have let myself go! Back to doing my make-up and hair!

4. Enjoy my family and friends. I have so may wonderful friends (they know who they are!)

5. Get ORGANIZED!!! I need to do this so bad!

6. Finish the boys room. I have so many ideas just need to put them into play!

Well there you have it my resolutions! I am sure there is probably more. I will get to them as the year proceeds! Happy New Year to all!